Jul 28, 2010
Jul 23, 2010
Jul 22, 2010
Well, when I'm out and about, I sometimes let my belly hang out all the way so I look more pregnant than I really am.
Especially around other pregnant ladies who are definitely further along than me. I just want to waddle over to them (not that I'm waddling yet) and say, "Look at me! I'm pregnant too!"
I just can't wait for the big ol' belly. :)
Jul 20, 2010
I feel like we are closer now than we have ever been. I think making a family, this little baby inside me, has drawn us together, so much more than ever before. Knowing this baby is coming gives us extra permission for staring at each other with googly eyes, and more hugs and belly rubs, and just knowing that we did this.
We are so much more than just me and him.
We went to Asheville to celebrate the two-year mark. We got married in the mountains, and because our hearts belong there anyway. We stayed two nights, which flew by because we stayed so busy. Already a tradition, staying in Asheville on our anniversary. Next year we will have a 7-month old with us!
Another tradition we've started is getting a small version of our wedding cake from the same bakery: carrot cake with hazelnut filling and cream cheese frosting. I forgot to take a picture of it, but here's a shot of it from our wedding day:
At the bakery, we decided to have some food. I got the most scrumptious VBLT (vegetarian BLT). I don't remember what Kevin got, but surely it wasn't as good as mine. Our ticket number was 42. Don't you know 42 is the answer to ultimate question of life, the universe, and everything?
And aren't these salt and pepper shakers just darling? I thought them appropriate for us, considering we are so different yet are so perfect together.
We walked around downtown and found art for the baby room (finally, doing a little something!) and getting caught in the rain. We saw old friends and met their new baby boy (he's a deliciously chubby baby with red hair and blue eyes). We also played Balderdash with Kevin's sister, her husband, and two others. Have you ever played Balderdash? So fun!
We stayed up late watching movies on tv and cuddling. And we left early on Monday, our anniversary, to come home. We stopped at noon on the dot, found a cute wall, and took our picture in front of it. Two years, exactly!
Last night was our first Bradley Method childbirth class. There are 8 couples in the class. One other couple is having their baby at the birth center, with our midwife! They are due one month before us. Another couple is due on our exact due date! The class has 3 other teachers, besides me, and 2 other people who work with music in some way, like Kevin.
I do a lot of research anyway, so the teacher didn't say anything new to me. But already it's helped me and Kevin get more in tune with each other, preparing for the birth of this baby. I think it will be good for him, too, to be around other new dads. I'm glad to be connecting to other pregnant moms. I haven't been able to talk to another pregnant ladies much since sharing the news after our 3-month mark.
I thought it was neat that our first childbirth class was on our anniversary. And after the class, we treated ourselves to some On The Border. Delicious black beans and rice (can we say MORE PROTEIN???).
I love you hubs!
It's surreal: in just one week, I will be halfway to holding our baby.
Halfway to sleepless nights.
Halfway to tiny toes and itty bitty fingernails.
Halfway to slobber and spitup.
Halfway to baby weight sleeping on my chest.
Halfway to seeing my husband holding our little child in his big hands.
Halfway to diaper explosions.
Halfway to feeling the most love I've ever known.
Halfway to feeling the most physical pain, ever.
Halfway to soft skin and baby-fine hair.
Halfway to wearing my baby everywhere.
Halfway to the the rest of my life.
Jul 15, 2010
Since the moment I found out I was pregnant, I went onto BabyCenter's website and plugged in my due date. They started sending me weekly emails telling me what was happening with my body that week, how the baby was developing, and of course, how big the baby was. They'd compare the baby's size to a piece of food - right now, for instance, little babe is about the size of a bell pepper.
Well, at 6 weeks, when I decided to tell our families that we were expecting, our baby was the size of a lentil bean. Therefore, Our Little Lentil.
Here's the story:
We wanted to share the news in person, so it involved driving an hour for Kevin's family, and then four hours for my family.
At each visit, after hanging out with the family for a bit so they don't guess right away that we're there to share the big news everyone's been waiting for, Kevin pulls something out of his pocket and says, "Hey, look at this." He's holding a lentil bean in his hand. Of course, everyone gathers around and looks at us like we're really weird, guessing what it is, and saying things like, "O-kay?" and Kevin would explain that it was a lentil bean, and sound really excited about it!
When the time felt right (we did this little number 4 times), I'd jump in and announce, "That's the size of our baby right now!"
And then lots of jumping and awwwing and clapping and hugging would ensue. It was fantastic, and I'm so glad we told our families in person, even if it did mean a 4 hour drive. I will never forget everyone's reactions:
- My friend Hannah, before knowing the significance, asked if she should eat the lentil bean, to which I practically screamed NO! Besides it not tasting good as an uncooked bean, I did not want her to digest the representation of my child.
- My mother sat stunned for a few seconds until it sank in and then she started crying. My brother, three years younger than me, who already has a 4 year old, looked at me with a mix of "are you crazy?" and "awesome!"
- My dad and stepmom jumped up and clapped and my dad said "I knew it!"
- Kevin's family looked around at each other while laughing and hugging. I think they knew all along that's what we came to visit for.
Jul 14, 2010
Jul 13, 2010
Penelope is in a Montessori program back where they live (I'm interested in Montessori in the future for our little lentil). We don't have many toys around the house, yet, so I whipped up a Montessori-inspired activity. I took some of different dried beans we had and put them in different containers, and also took a piece of cardboard that was part of the packing for our new bedframe. I showed her how to make rows of beans in the cardboard tray, sorting them. And then we moved on to using a spoon to pick up the beans.
She LOVED those beans. That is all she played with when we were at the house Saturday and it was the first thing she went to when she woke up on Sunday morning. Such simple, natural materials, and so much possibility for fun!
We also went to the park on Sunday and took a walk. We went right up to the lake and saw some geese swimming by. When they noticed us, they swam closer and stopped right in front of us. They took a few minutes to bathe and clean their feathers, and swam on. It was so neat!
We will definitely make sure to visit more often. I definitely want to be in this little girl's life! Plus, when I have a little one of my own, just 3 years age difference, we can have play dates!
Hannah's going to try and come visit again, just herself, before I start working again. Then we'll be able to have more in depth conversations about baby and plans!
Jul 12, 2010
When I see my reflection in the mirror, I get excited! I don't feel weird about my body anymore, feeling like I look chubby. I actually see my little preggie belly, and that makes me so happy! I get all smiley and think it's cute! I'm really looking forward to seeing my belly grow!
Jul 9, 2010
My mind has SO MUCH running through it right now. House projects that (don't really) NEED to get done before December, landscaping stuff that I want done, baby nursery things to consider and decide upon, tons of other baby crap that I don't even really know where to begin with that needs to be worked on/researched/done.
One week ago your daddy and I went in for our 2nd appointment with the midwife. I was nervous about this appointment for a couple reasons. One, I was unsure we picked the right midwife for us, but it turns out that I was just worrying about any and everything I could (including her). She made me feel much more comfortable, at least for now, and spent over an hour talking with me and letting me ask her all sorts of questions (like, why do I get these horrible headaches every day? and when does my belly get hard?).
I was also nervous that for some reason we wouldn't be able to hear your heartbeat. One month ago at our last appointment, the doppler only picked up your heartbeat for 2 seconds or so. We were grateful that we could even hear your heartbeat at all, but it left us wanting more.
Part of me wondered if I made it up, hearing your heartbeat. Even though we had video evidence that it was not a part of my imagination, your moma tends to worry... a lot. I was just so scared that something had happened to you in the last month, or that we would hear something wrong in your heartbeat, and the midwife would turn to us and say that we needed to go get an ultrasound, stat!
But you are healthy, and strong, and your heartbeat sounded so beautiful to my ears, and to your dad's ears. I can still replay in my mind the sound and speed of your tiny heart. 153 beats per minute (that's so fast!!!). Your dad confessed that at work a few days later he set up a metronome on his phone to 153 beats per minute and drummed along to it. He couldn't get it out of his head either.
And ever since then, since there was real proof that you do exist within me, I have felt even so much more connected to you. Our spirits are entwined, little one. I love you so much, baby, and when the light changes it's probably my hands rubbing my belly, sending that love straight to you.